Thursday, November 14, 2013

Reaching Out

What do you do when you're sad?

I bet "be nice to other people" isn't on your list. Calling a friend to ask for attention might be, but it's not the same.
My therapist recommended that if I ever get the urge and I have no one to turn to, I should send out nice messages or do something altruistic before I act on any urges. 
You send out a message like "hey, pretty eyes" without expecting a response. And for some reason, doing that makes you happier, because you know someone else will be happier when they receive it. 
When I've done a big gesture, I felt such a surge of love that it made me feel at peace with myself. 

Try it! And let me know what you think. 

Monday, November 11, 2013

Goals of the Week 64


My goals last week were:
1. plan all my meals
2. write down everything I eat on this blog. 

I did those for 4 out of 7 days, and it helped. I was binging and purging through Friday, but the weekend was better. This week my goal will be to plan all my meals again, and to plan out the food groups. I'm still slightly in my funk, and I need to get out of it. 

And my non b/p goal was:
To make daily goals. 

Again, I did this 4/7 days. It helped. My goal for this week is to make daily goals, and to send a nice message to someone whenever I feel down. More on that later.

What are your goals?

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Thursday Meals

Bfast: (800)
1 egg, cottage cheese, 1 c milk, 2 pieces toast with butter
food groups: protein, dairy, fat, starch

lunch: (400)

portabello mushroom sandwich with cheese
food groups: veg, starch, protein

snack:
two mochi

Dinner
1 c tomato basil soup, couscous, brownie, ice cream, 4 mochi, bread with butter
Threw this up. 

Why can't I keep anything down?? I'm such a fatass. I'm gaining so much weight...

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

You Are Not Broken

Here is a song I wrote and sang. 
Please give it a listen, I wrote it for everyone who reads this blog! 

video

Meals on Tuesday and Wednesday

Breakfast: 4 slices bacon, 1 c milk, 2 eggs, 1 piece of toast with butter, 1 chocolate chip muffin 
(threw this up later)
food groups: protein, dairy, starch, fat

lunch:
1 cookie, 1 pudding, teddy grahams, chicken caesar salad, 1/2 c orange juice, apple sauce
food groups: dairy, fat, starch, protein, veg, fruit

(I wanted to throw this abominable amount of food up too, but I haven't yet)

Dinner:
1 packet of elfin cookies. And some peanuts. 
food groups: peanuts, starch

Wednesday:
bfast: 1 packet of cheezits, 1 granola bar
food groups: starch

lunch:
portabello mushroom sandwich with cheese, 1 cup milk
food groups; starch, veg, dairy

Monday, November 4, 2013

Goals of the Week 63

I'm going to forget about updating you on how I did this week, because you can bet it was not good. 

This week, my b/p goals are:
1. plan all my meals
2. write down everything I eat on this blog. 

Meals:
breakfast: (5 pieces) bacon, milk, toast with butter, 2 eggs food groups: dairy, protein, starch, fat

lunch: 2 pieces pizza, 1 bowl of tomato soup, 1.5 pieces bread with butter, 1 cup orange juice, some milk with chocolate icing food groups: fat, veg, fat, starch, protein, fruit

And then I threw it up. 

Dinner: popcorn shrimp 
food group: protein

And my non b/p goal is:
To make daily goals. 

I've done these time and time again. But lately it's been hard to do anything that isn't eating. 

What are your goals?