I have decided that each week I am going to create two goals and try to find evidence challenging my cons. Then every Monday I will post the results and new goals.
BP Goal: No BP through getting on the plane to my boyfriend's house.
Other Goal: Journal any negative thoughts about myself.
Evidence to challenge cons:
1. My girl friend contacted me out of the blue and asked me to hang out. I was overjoyed. The only thing with that is that she implied that she did it because she was “bored” and not because she wanted to hang out with me. But she still contacted me! This challenges the I Won’t be Interesting con, since it shows that people do want to get in touch with me even when they don’t know about my illness.
2. One of my guy friends from college contacted me every single day, which is normal, but I can’t dismiss it now. I’m grateful. This challenges the I Won’t be Interesting con.
3. My bgf is coming to the movie! This challenges the I Won’t be Interesting con.
4. My family and I had wonderful times playing games and spending time together. Why shouldn’t they count as people who seek me out and care about me? This challenges the I Won’t be Interesting con.
5. I ate a normal sized sandwich for lunch outside of my meal plan and did not binge. This challenges my belief that if I don’t restrict, I will lose control and gain a lot of weight. Clearly, I didn’t lose control this time.
6. I’m sure I gained several pounds, and my clothes still fit. My pink, strapless, dance dress still fits, although it is a bit tight. I’m not sure whether or not this is a challenge, because I want the clothes to be falling off of me, not fitting, but whatever. This challenges the Gaining Weight is the Worst Thing belief.
7. If I did gain several pounds, NO ONE NOTICED. This challenges the Gaining Weight is the Worst Thing belief.
What are your goals for the week? What kinds of things did you do that challenged your beliefs?