Sometimes after a few days of lots of purges I find myself unable to get food out of my stomach. Why is this?
I always told myself it was a message from God telling me that it wasn’t in his plans for me to be bulimic. He didn’t want me to purge. He was planning for me to get better.
I have no idea about any biological basis for this, since it seems like most bulimics don’t experience this. And this past summer, when this happened, I forced myself to purge anyway and got through it. It wasn’t pleasant, let me tell you. My theory is that the body doesn’t want to purge anything so it shuts down the gag reflex somehow. Or it makes it less sensitive.
Either way, I’m fully in favor of letting the body tell you when you can’t purge. It’s such a relief to realize that yes, I have had enough of this vomiting business for now. My body can’t handle any more, and I won’t push it.
Anybody ever experienced this? What do you think?