Yesterday I was talking to Chris for some unknown reason, and afterwards I started crying because I felt like an awful person.
And something occurred to me.
When I cry, I feel fat. For some reason tears are associated with weight gain. It's probably because when i used to restrict I had no emotions and therefore went years without crying. To be honest I still think that's normal.
Now I cry all the time. Like once a week at least, because I get so overwhelmed by anger and sadness and regret. And whenever I cry I feel like I'm crying because I ate too much. If I hadn't been a fatso that day I wouldn't be able to force tears out of my eyes.
Anyone else feel the same way?