Ate: Marshmallows, yoplait, smarties
Thoughts: I hate myself. I should be fired. I was being stupid. Everyone hates me now. My coworker definitely hates me and he thinks I'm stupid and mean and a horrible caretaker because I did this. He probably talks about me behind everyone's back about how horrible a caretaker I am and turns everyone against me. He hates me. I know he does. And I ruined my reputation with everyone else too. I hate myself. I wish I could erase people's memories. I'm stupid. I can't believe I yelled at him. I just seem more guilty every time I open my fat mouth. Everyone hates me and everyone is going to catch on that I'm horrible and they'll fire me and yell at me.
I don't know about you but I'm more afraid of people yelling at me than if they fire me in a quiet voice.
Situation: Going to my first group therapy meeting (I'll post about it soon!) and I had to buy food to eat. I didn't know we had to bring something, so I had eaten a big meal beforehand.
Ate: candied nuts, cheezits
Thoughts: I don't know what to get. If I get this then everyone will think I'm doing it because I have an eating disorder. But if I get something unhealthy they'll think I'm doing it to fit in. And I need to get something big enough that people won't think I'm being anorexic, even though I don't look anorexic. But I already ate and I'm not hungry. Ugh.....