Today was a success! No binging and no purging. I even exercised too and had a great conversation with my boyfriend.
That being said, there were a couple situations which almost made me binge, but I managed to deflect them.
Situation: I lied. It wasn't life-threatening and it didn't harm anyone but I'm ashamed of it. I lied to make myself seem more capable. I lied yesterday and nothing bad happened, but someone suspected me of lying and it made me feel so guilty. I woke up today feeling horrible about it and I can say that I've learned my lesson, at least for the near future. I will never lie on the job again.
Ate: Nothing. I just curled up in a ball on my bed and tried to breathe deeply.
Thoughts: He knows. He knows I lied and I should be fired. I deserve it for lying to make myself look better. I suck. I'll never do it again, I promise, just let it blow over, please. I don't deserve anyone's trust. Everyone knows. Everyone is talking about me and none of them trust me anymore.
Situation: I got back from exercising and just had to have a piece of dessert. What I ate fit into my calorie limit, but then I wanted to eat more.
Ate: grapes, instead of dessert
Thoughts: That tasted soooo gooooood, I need more. There's more of it and no one else will eat it if I don't. I should get it out of the way while I still can. No, I should eat grapes instead. They're low in calories and they'll taste really good. Just eat five and then see if you still want dessert.