Not having a boyfriend means going out into the world with my prettiest face forward and trying to find someone else to love.
The problem: I thought my ex was the sexiest man on the planet. It was great when we were together, because I had the BMOC in my hand, and I proudly showed him off to everyone we met.
Now, I have pimples all over my face and I’ve gained 10 pounds. I wasn’t that pretty before, and now I'm a definite uglybutt.
I know that I will never attract a man of my ex’s caliber ever again. No one that sexy, that popular, will ever find me attractive. I accepted that as soon as I started to date him. And I held on to him tightly.
But now I can’t date someone worse than him. No one can ever date downwards and have it last. The way to get over someone is to find someone better, not just anybody.
There are two guys that like me right now. Both of them are very nice. Both have bright futures, and both are older than me. One of them is even blonde with blue eyes! But neither of them lives up to my ex.
I’d be lucky to snag either one, what with my attractiveness level. But I just can’t be attracted to them when I’ve had better.
You can try and tell me I’m an awful person for not giving them chances, but would you ever date someone if you thought your ex was better than them? You can’t control attraction, and that’s nothing to be ashamed of. It might just mean you’re in for disappointment. Or that you'll be alone for a looooooong time.