Monday, July 8, 2013

Goals of the Week 50

Hi to any new followers! I'm happy to check out your blogs but I'm much more likely to do it if you leave a comment, because otherwise I forget or get distracted. So please, if you read this and I haven't looked at your blog, don't be offended, it's not because I don't want to! 

Last week my goal was to eat normally 3 days in a row. And I finally did it! I was so proud once that third day rolled around. I had slip-ups towards the end of the week, but I still managed to eat normally 4/7 days. 
My goal for this week is to eat normally 4 days in a row. I know I can do it. I have the right kind of motivation and not so many cravings (since yesterday I ate an entire box of swiss rolls... I think that satisfied it). Today is day 1. 

I had the goal to be more aware of when Ed was telling me to do things. And I definitely accomplished that. I wrote down a few conversations between us to help separate him from me. I obeyed him and listened, but I did argue back. It was very hard to think of Ed whenever I was in the middle of a binge or purge though. Right then it was all "I, me, Emily" even though it was Ed that was making me do it. 
My non b/p goal for this week is to each day right after breakfast, write out the answers to these questions:
1. What does Ed want me to do today?
2. What do I need to do to be in recovery today?

Again, the idea comes from Life Without Ed (the book by Jenni Schaefer), but I think it's a really good one and it can help me stay on track. 

What are your goals? 


  1. I'm super glad you had a good week dear! I read your last post too and I'm one of those people that has to explain my weakness/emotions. It's hard not to want to.
    I don't know if I have any goals beyond listen and trust God and do the right thing with my current situation.

  2. Congratulations on eating normally for 3 days :)
    Good luck on your goal this week. You're stronger than you think!

  3. Eat more often. Saturday I didn't eat until 4 pm, Yesterday was alright, but it was only a smoothie and then dinner. I want to get a better schedule and routine of eating. Also I want to finish a writing project and actually post it. Congrats on doing well, and I may check out that book. I really like that question, what can I do for recovery today.

  4. That's a brilliant idea, the morning writing exercise. I might have to get hold of that book at some point.
    And well done on 3 days of normal eating! I am so so so proud of you. Keep it up!
    My goals for this week are to do a little sewing each day and work on minimizing self-harm.

    Have a fantastic week Emily xx

  5. :3 you're too cute of course
    I love that you're able to keep them separate. I always keep my two disorders separate (well two currently) - ED and depression are two separate things. they are not me. i am some suicidal maniac nor am i someone that lives to binge and purge anymore. grand actually. <3
    i'm really really proud of you. i hope you're able to accomplish all your goals this week! and even if you don't - there's always next week ;) <3

    -Sam Lupin

  6. Being aware of what is you and what is Ed speaking is huge... It's hard to separate the two when they're both a part of you but it's really important. The second you realize it's not you in control you can shut down what the bad part of your mind is telling you [in theory].

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    Good luck with your goals this week <3


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