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Last week my goal was to eat normally 3 days in a row. And I finally did it! I was so proud once that third day rolled around. I had slip-ups towards the end of the week, but I still managed to eat normally 4/7 days.
My goal for this week is to eat normally 4 days in a row. I know I can do it. I have the right kind of motivation and not so many cravings (since yesterday I ate an entire box of swiss rolls... I think that satisfied it). Today is day 1.
I had the goal to be more aware of when Ed was telling me to do things. And I definitely accomplished that. I wrote down a few conversations between us to help separate him from me. I obeyed him and listened, but I did argue back. It was very hard to think of Ed whenever I was in the middle of a binge or purge though. Right then it was all "I, me, Emily" even though it was Ed that was making me do it.
My non b/p goal for this week is to each day right after breakfast, write out the answers to these questions:
1. What does Ed want me to do today?
2. What do I need to do to be in recovery today?
Again, the idea comes from Life Without Ed (the book by Jenni Schaefer), but I think it's a really good one and it can help me stay on track.
What are your goals?
I'm super glad you had a good week dear! I read your last post too and I'm one of those people that has to explain my weakness/emotions. It's hard not to want to.
ReplyDeleteI don't know if I have any goals beyond listen and trust God and do the right thing with my current situation.
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Congratulations on eating normally for 3 days :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck on your goal this week. You're stronger than you think!
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Eat more often. Saturday I didn't eat until 4 pm, Yesterday was alright, but it was only a smoothie and then dinner. I want to get a better schedule and routine of eating. Also I want to finish a writing project and actually post it. Congrats on doing well, and I may check out that book. I really like that question, what can I do for recovery today.
ReplyDeleteThat's a brilliant idea, the morning writing exercise. I might have to get hold of that book at some point.
ReplyDeleteAnd well done on 3 days of normal eating! I am so so so proud of you. Keep it up!
My goals for this week are to do a little sewing each day and work on minimizing self-harm.
Have a fantastic week Emily xx
:3 you're too cute of course
ReplyDeleteI love that you're able to keep them separate. I always keep my two disorders separate (well two currently) - ED and depression are two separate things. they are not me. i am some suicidal maniac nor am i someone that lives to binge and purge anymore. grand actually. <3
i'm really really proud of you. i hope you're able to accomplish all your goals this week! and even if you don't - there's always next week ;) <3
-Sam Lupin
Being aware of what is you and what is Ed speaking is huge... It's hard to separate the two when they're both a part of you but it's really important. The second you realize it's not you in control you can shut down what the bad part of your mind is telling you [in theory].
ReplyDeleteMy blog is:
eatnomore.blogspot.com
Good luck with your goals this week <3