My goal last week was to eat normally 4 days in a row. I didn't do that by a long shot: I only had one normal day this week. BUT I only purged one day. And I didn't have a true binge on some of the other days. I guess you could call them small binges. So it's an improvement.
My goal is the same as last week: eat normally 4 days in a row. I can do it, I know I can. I still have all that motivation, and I won't be at home to eat dinner with my triggering family.
The sub-goal for this week is that whenever I want to binge I need to give myself permission to overeat. I did this last week and it led to small binges. Anything's better than eating an entire box of swiss rolls. Giving myself permission to overeat does not make me feel good, but it makes me feel better than binging and purging would. And sometimes it's necessary to overcome the urges I have to eat and eat and eat.
My non b/p goal for last week was to write out the answers to these questions:
1. What does Ed want me to do today?
2. What do I need to do to be in recovery today?
I did that for about 4 days, so I'm going to do it again, starting today. It did help. It helped me separate out Ed from me, and I don't really know why I stopped halfway through the week. Probably because I was tired. Or because my friend came over and dominated my time. I hate that I had to go out and eat with him. I don't like eating restaurant food. I just want to eat safely.
What are your goals?